I am a feeler. All my life I have had big emotions but for a long time I pushed them down deep, self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. I was trying to fill up with numbness so I didn’t have to feel anything at all. Now that drugs and alcohol no longer serve me and the life I live, I use my first “drug” of choice - FOOD. More specifically – SUGAR. I turn to sugar for all occasions and it calls to me. It is a craving that is almost unstoppable. Sugar helps me to turn off the feelings and forget for a little while. Sugar was my first addiction. Even while embracing and loving the spiritual life sugar still plays role. Sugar turns the volume down on my spiritual gifts. When I get overwhelmed by spirit instead of practicing the skills I have learned to close down my aura and set boundaries, I reach for cookies or candy. I sugar my crown chakra. That also effects my third e...
Many times in my life I have felt like I have not been heard. Like I have not been believed, my feelings minimized and overall misunderstood. A big part of that is because I was NOT speaking my mind or my truth. My throat chakra was closed and/or out of alignment. Short description of the throat chakra found on www.chakras.info “ The Throat chakra is the fifth chakra. Located at the center of the neck at the level of the throat, it is the passage of the energy between the lower parts of the body and the head. The function of the Throat chakra is driven by the principle of expression and communication . The Throat chakra is associated with the following psychological and behavioral characteristics: · Expression, in particular ability to express your truth, to speak out · Communication, whether it’s verbal or non-verbal, external or internal...
As I scroll through my Facebook I see an obituary of a young man who died from addiction. Another young life lost to a disease where there IS a daily reprieve. It makes me pause because that obituary could have been mine if I didn't get sober. The obituary could be mine if I choose to stop following the simple program of action I have learned from 12 steps. I want to celebrate life right NOW. I want to be grateful NOW. I want to celebrate life with you while we are still on this Earth. I do not want celebrate a life at another funeral. My solution is to pick up the phone, to drop a card in the mail and send a text. I want to do all that I can to spend quality time with the people that I love. They are worth my time and attention. I am going to take the trip I've been putting off, I am going to get another tattoo and I am going to make my 8th step list I've been balking at. If I wait for the “right time” I will never do it. I am worth my own time and attention. Life...
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