Food for Thought
I have the disease of “more”. Whatever makes me feel good I want more and more and more of it. As a child I used food, toys, attention and affection to feel good about myself and as a teen and young adult I used drugs and alcohol. Now in sobriety I struggle again with food. I am an eater. I am a binge eater and compulsive overeater. I eat when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I don’t feel well, when I’m lonely, I eat in celebration and I eat out of boredom. I have been this way all my life. I got sober in 2009 and over 5 years I gained 65 pounds. I was tired all the time, always trying to radically modify my food intake and failing miserably at controlling my eating. The only coping skill and comfort I had was eating. My solution was to get weight loss surgery. I completed all the requirements and 6 months later in June 2014 I had vertical sleeve gastrectomy. In 1 year I lost 80 pounds and felt better than ever. Over the following years I becam