OVERTHINKING
When I was in active addiction I was a master at making decisions. Or so I thought. All I had to do was think of ME and the choice was made. I concocted a plan where I did the least amount of work, benefited the most and was the clear winner. It’s the way of an addict/alcoholic. Now in sobriety I think ALL. THE. TIME. It’s overthinking really. Is this the right choice, should I do this, should I do that, what if it's the wrong color, what will ppl think, what do I think, am I hungry, what if I’m just hungry and I don't even want this thing/person/situation? It’s truly mind boggling. The thing is, our brains are constantly making choices all day long. It’s what we do. Weigh the pros and cons in an instant and make the choice. Some choices are harder than others and sometimes I make things harder than THEY NEED TO BE. I cant get out of my own fucking way sometimes. I overthink and all of a sudden fear starts to creep in. My mind wanders down dange