Feeling Words
I find myself using the words “good” and “bad” ALL THE TIME. I especially struggle with pinpointing how I feel in the moment, so I reach for simple words. I’m a writer, JFC, shouldn’t I be able to articulate my feelings or a situation with a plethora of words?!?!? See, I just used a cool word, plethora. In retrospect I am able to describe accurately and with lots of pizzaz. I am working, in therapy and home practice, at processing my feelings and situations closer to the actual time of event. I have spent much of my life powering through painful, difficult and even joyous occasions. My goal was to get through it instead of experiencing it. I think that is one of the reasons it is so challenging for me to express how I feel, because I wasn’t living it when it happened. I am committed to living here and now, yet I still grasp for the right words. My brain sees a lot of the world in “black-white-good-bad” etc. It is difficult for me to live in the gray area and my pers