Hurt
I am cancer free and officially done with chemotherapy. I am thrilled that it is over but oddly I feel aimless. It has been a whirlwind of appointments, information and decisions. I have powered through the pain, the fatigue and the emotional rollercoaster and now…it’s all over for a while. I am aiming to have my reconstruction surgery in January 2018. I need a break from the poking and prodding. Even though it’s over for a bit, I still hurt. I have joint and nerve pain. I have a great deal of discomfort in my chest and my muscles are stiff. I am uncomfortable in my skin. I hurt and I’m tired and emotionally exhausted. I want things to be the way they used to be. I want to feel fit again. I’m pissed that my eyebrows are falling out. I’m sick of having a bald head and people staring at me. My feet and hands hurt all the time. I want to NOT HURT ANYMORE. Overall, I am angry that this happened to me. I know that it is going to ta