Easy Does It
I struggle
with having down time. It’s weird
because my greatest wish used to be that someday I would become a lady of
leisure. These days when I have some
free time I feel like I should be doing something. Cleaning, reading, scrolling through Instagram…something! I live in society where we are always
multi-tasking. Literally right now I’m
writing this blog while watching The Force Awakens. I find it very difficult do one thing at a
time.
Right now my body needs rest. I am still very fatigued and get tired fast. I cannot go back to the go-go-go lifestyle I had and if I try I will suffer in the long run. I know this intellectually but inside I feel guilty, like I’m doing something wrong by resting and taking it easy. I know that I am not the only person that feels this way. It is strange to be in this internal tug of war, wanting to do more and less at the same time.
Staying constantly occupied has saved me from becoming mentally overwhelmed with my situation. Keeping busy, especially with work, has made me feel useful and less like a “sick person”. Remaining engaged in everyday life has kept me connected with other people and out of my own head. I am grateful to have a full life and balancing it means taking it easy when I need to.
Every day I have to tell myself that it is okay to be where I am. It is okay to rest, relax and recover. Thank goodness I have some wonderful women in my life that tell me this regularly. It helps to hear it out loud especially when I am trying to do too much. I need to remember, having down time is a luxury some do not have. I’m thanking my lucky stars that I have all I need, especially the time to get better.
Right now my body needs rest. I am still very fatigued and get tired fast. I cannot go back to the go-go-go lifestyle I had and if I try I will suffer in the long run. I know this intellectually but inside I feel guilty, like I’m doing something wrong by resting and taking it easy. I know that I am not the only person that feels this way. It is strange to be in this internal tug of war, wanting to do more and less at the same time.
Staying constantly occupied has saved me from becoming mentally overwhelmed with my situation. Keeping busy, especially with work, has made me feel useful and less like a “sick person”. Remaining engaged in everyday life has kept me connected with other people and out of my own head. I am grateful to have a full life and balancing it means taking it easy when I need to.
Every day I have to tell myself that it is okay to be where I am. It is okay to rest, relax and recover. Thank goodness I have some wonderful women in my life that tell me this regularly. It helps to hear it out loud especially when I am trying to do too much. I need to remember, having down time is a luxury some do not have. I’m thanking my lucky stars that I have all I need, especially the time to get better.
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