I am a feeler. All my life I have had big emotions but for a long time I pushed them down deep, self-medicating with drugs and alcohol. I was trying to fill up with numbness so I didn’t have to feel anything at all. Now that drugs and alcohol no longer serve me and the life I live, I use my first “drug” of choice - FOOD. More specifically – SUGAR. I turn to sugar for all occasions and it calls to me. It is a craving that is almost unstoppable. Sugar helps me to turn off the feelings and forget for a little while. Sugar was my first addiction. Even while embracing and loving the spiritual life sugar still plays role. Sugar turns the volume down on my spiritual gifts. When I get overwhelmed by spirit instead of practicing the skills I have learned to close down my aura and set boundaries, I reach for cookies or candy. I sugar my crown chakra. That also effects my third eye (also referred to as the brow chakra). These chakras are the gateway throu
ππΊπHi friends! The blog has been quiet of late. I have been working from home, reading, cleaning (not much, still counts though) but mostly I’ve been feeling. This sounds weird because don't we feel every day, all day? Isn’t life just a series of situations with waves of feelings and emotions?? π€·π½♀️Well, yes and no. The behavior I picked up along the way was to power through an experience, especially the uncomfortable, leave it behind and carry on like all was well. So I never got the chance to feel because I stuffed it all down, encapsulated my experience and moved on...or so I thought. During quarantine I’m pulling up a chair and feeling tough emotions. Instead of running I am sitting in the uncomfortable. Letting it wash over and through me. This is the only way I will be able to truly heal. Right now I am focusing on the feeling part of my healing instead of the writing, analyzing, editing & sharing part. I may be quiet here but it’s because I’ve gi
2019 was a wild year of death and rebirth in my life. I released many old stifling beliefs and embraced abundance. I quit my full time job, graduated massage school, moved off Cape back into my parents house, took a few months off to decompress, started therapy and took a part time job as a licensed massage therapist. WHEW! I am still processing and integrating all the changes. As I sit here on January 1st, I want to share with you some of the intentions I have set for powerful 2020. -Less is more When I believe in my worth, insist on receiving the true value of my skills and let things F L O W, overworking is not necessary. It is possible to do less and receive more. -Patience I am patient, calm and grateful for the journey and the ultimate outcome. Instant gratification feels nice in the moment but it’s gone in a flash. 2020 is a time of patient energy. I do not have to push, pull or manipulate. -Prioritize I put my ideas and plans on pape
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